I just don’t know anymore

I think I'm losing my grip on reality. Time has no meaning anymore. February was yesterday. March was three years ago. Yesterday hasn't happened yet. I feel untethered, lost. I don't know who I am anymore - I don't even know who I used to be or who I want to be. I know I…

Welcome to the Fucking Apocalypse

I vowed yesterday while I sat outside on my dinner break and tried not to cry that I was going to start writing some of this down. I'm going to start with a positive, because I feel like it's necessary: One random good thing that has come out of all of this is that I've…

September 5th. April 28th. July 23rd. August 27th.

TW: miscarriage and blood These dates are burned into my brain for all eternity. July 23rd 2019. The date of my last period. August 27th 2019. The day I realized I was five days late, peed on five pregnancy tests, called out of work, and made my husband come home at like 9am when he…

This is What I Thought Friendship is Supposed to Be Like

In the novel Technically, You Started It, by Lana Wood Johnson there are two Martin Nathaniel Munroe IIs in Haley Hancock's US History class. When one of them texts her, he identifies himself as only "[the] good one." The Martin that Haley thinks of as the "burrito clown" broke her best friend's heart years ago,…

Teen Book Bash 2019

I've been sitting on the notes for this blog post since Saturday, and even still, writing this is so hard. I've been fighting this crappy cold since last Monday and it's sapping me of all my energy. I haven't even been able to start reading any of my new lovely swag. But anyway, I'l stop…

Only the Stars Know Her Name

I was lucky enough to snag one of these beauties at Bookcon 2019 a week ago. Check out that cover, isn't it gorgeous!?As a modern day self identifying witch, the Salem Witch Trials have always been a source of fascination for me. Tituba was the slave woman who was the first to be accused of…

Bookcon 2019

This was my second year at Bookcon and I went about it much differently. Last year I did a ton of pre-planning. This year, I had a couple of things I really wanted to get to (of which I only got to one), and otherwise just wandered the show floor. I'm not really sure which…

Joy Is At The Helm

Boyfriend and I saw Inside Out last night.  Why is it anyway that they've starting showing movies that open Friday at like 7pm on Thursday, anyway?  Regardless, this was a very good movie.  No, it wasn't any Up as the previews kept saying.  However, I think that Inside Out is going to be a movie…

One Seriously Bad Ass Botanist

Six days into a mission on Mars, Mark Watney is left behind by his crew during an emergency evacuation.  He is left with the Hab, in which to live, an assortment of research vehicles and materials, enough food for 6 people to live on the surface of Mars for another 50 days, and absolutely no…

The Moral of This Story: Research Before You Move

I don't think that I've ever timed anything so well in my life.  I managed to see two movies today, Ex Machine and Poltergeist 3D and the overlap was nonexistent.  I finished movie one and stepped into the theater of movie two as the previews started to roll; win, massive win.  Usually on two movie…